A revision will be made, coming eventually....
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****(Please DO NOT confuse any of this information with medical advice, I'm not a medical professional or expert)****
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Howdy ya'll,Due to how YT works, this comment will serve as my 'Update Blog.'
https://www.reddit.com/r/experimentalmusic/s/eIey3NnLSw
https://youtube.com/@chrismusiclab?si=gmM7WxK7dPquCKQ-
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Update - I have an idea, testing tomorrow.
Good luck to meeeeeeee 🧪 (Successful)
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Update 2 - Less is more.... I think I'm close, I can feel it.
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Update 3 - New tracks out with my most recent & near final sound. 🤯
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Update 4 - Some tracks are becoming harmonized... harmonic?❔❓ After my new changes. Also, there is an update in the description of Vol 1, please read. 🧪
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Update 5 - Calibration - I'm pushing the sound's boundaries, stress testing on 3 videos. Let's see what'll survive, the track or my sound...🎶
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Update 6 - Stress test successful. So much so, it gave me a headache. Worth it❗❕ 🤯
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Update 7 - Omg. I just hit 100 tracks today!❗❕
I can't believe it. What a journey this has become. 🥳 (3/25/26)
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Update 8 - I did not consider the health factors of playing around with sound. I highly recommend that if you listen to my slowed variations of tracks, to please take breaks. I believe I am touching on frequency level architecture that I do not fully comprehend. Thank you❗❕
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Update 9 - I accidentally left a previous note that exposed me to a stress track. In terms of sound, I feel like this is a grave mistake. So that means the final track out of the 3 is my last blind sound test, essentially. Unfortunate for this experiment, today is a bad day for it. Clinical error..❓Or is this by design..❔ Whoops 😅
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(This may be confusing, yes I made the slowed tracks, though, I made many in a short period of time. I wasn't keeping track. Moreover, every time I listened to the music, it was shuffled. I focused on sound, not visuals or anything else. Maybe this doesn't matter.. it's not a real experiment..yet I tried for legitimacy.. a sad attempt at one❓❔)
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Update 10 - I'm taking a day off today (apparently not). The realization of all of this is too much to bear. I need time to process. Find me in r/experimentalmusic on Reddit. It's one of the top posts. I desperately need the professionals, students, and enthusiasts' opinions.
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Update 11 - Third stress test track confirmed. Alright... Kinda fascinating. I found the track while listening on mobile, with different earbuds. Has my hearing become accustomed to only one earbud set? I will reflect on this. Headphones were used to create this sound. I didn't notice it there either. 🤔 Hmmm.. an unknown variable I wasn't aware of. Overexposure.....❓
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(1st or 2nd test track discovered around this time, I noted it within the song description. Sorry, I can't remember which track. It's there, I know it.)
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Update 12 - Ugh, frustrating, I had a post and posted it, but it doesn't save sometimes on YouTube. Damn bugs. What I had tried to say is, I am actively seeking out certain tracks and while they are great tracks, the sound provides a sort of relief. It also feels multilayered...psychological because the track means something, and physiological relief too; I suffer from a condition due to the medication I take. Finally, what.. spiritual? Hah... Get over yourself. 😂
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Continued... Is music spiritual in essence❔❔❔❔❔❓❔ Music is sound, music is energy... Music can harm.. it can soothe... I may not be too far off.
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Also, a side note, there is a bottleneck with posting; it's not reliable. Find a new source.
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Update 13 - First, I am so sorry you all have to see this scribble. I'm literally just jotting down my thoughts as they come. I didn't take the time to proofread this stuff. So many typos. I'll try harder from here on forward to be more concise. That said, I fixed some errors. And I received some responses on Reddit that were quite useful, with some that seemed less than enthusiastic.
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Can I blame them?❓❔ What do I know.... nothing.
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I have one statement for anyone who doubts me & my process, or doesn't understand my "art." (External validation solves nothing, ego)
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"I am wiser than this man; neither of us probably knows anything really good, but he thinks he knows something when he does not, whereas I, as I do not think I know, am likely to be wiser to that small extent." - Socrates
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Meh.. you get the idea....
1 new track released... only one for today... Gorillaz...❓❔Enjoy❗❕
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Update 14 - Good morning peeeepz! After getting some rest... Yeah... I feel good today. I hope you all are having a great morning! That said, I learned a lot yesterday. Plunderphonics...The Caretaker❓❔ Pierre Schaeffer? ❓❔
Say what??❓❓?❔ 🤯
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https://www.reddit.com/r/experimentalmusic/s/eIey3NnLSw
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Update 15 - Surreal. As I was calibrating my sound over time, I would listen to it in my car. I didn't realize it was part of the process. Holy f***** shit. I feel like, hyper awareness right now. Everything feels surreal. (It was like watching a movie in my head...my mind., it was soooo vivid..)
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During this experience, I saw my entire plan unfold. The meaning, why I'm doing this.... (I didn't understand before, I do now, it's hard to explain... I thought I did..even now it's cloudy..hazy..❓❔) There are so many variables I didn't even know.
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Oh my god..... What am I doing❓ How am I doing this❓ I don't hide the fact I use AI in my creative process.
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(Misleading, I use AI as a library, everything I type and the sound... is all me. Minus the looping videos and other obvious AI artwork, the track itself.)
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I have a theory. I have multiple. I....
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Created a frequency to heal myself..? Treat myself??❓❔❓?..... I suffer from tinnitus. Is this frequency a direct parallel to it?
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These are questions I would ask it....
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Sonorous objects?❔❓
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Music that moves....
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I can't right now.
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Wait, you're telling me...
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The moving sound, the effect..
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I thought.... It was in the song... Already..?
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Ah... I see. This sound. It influences both the physiological and psychological.
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There are no words.
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Final notes for tonight, there is more to the story I so desperately want to tell you all. You will think I'm crazy.... I can't. I'm sorry. (I have included some details in this update)
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Happy Friday & enjoy your night... Live like it's your last night on this Earth.
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Because.... It could be.
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Update 16 - Oh my God... My son, who has level 3 autism... He heard my sound in my car, amplified as my experience. He suffers from echolalia...
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When he heard the frequency.. his behavior shifted.....
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Or his perspective????❔???❓?
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I have no explanation but tears.
I have never seen him be so quiet... Focused? Entertained? Overstimulated...❓
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Wait... Plunderphonics, Time Stretching, and autism... Echolalia? Is there a relationship?❓Impossible.
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I can't believe this. Echolalia is a curse that forces a person to repeat what they hear. Plus more.
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But, if they can't focus due to time stretch... They struggle to repeat? They are unable to pick? Unable to focus❓
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What is this.......
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Or they are able to focus....❓❓❔❓❓
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This is my theory so far. And I'm unsure why I even have a theory... Why.....(Mmhmm)
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It's a paradox...? It cannot be quantified?❓❔
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(What can't be❓)
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(Life.....Death❔❓❔???)
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The sound❔?❓
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Final Note for the Experiment❔
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I move into philosophy...
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What alternative is there to questions, that, not even science can answer....yet❓❔
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Yes, philosophy is the answer. So is music.
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I listen to these slowed🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶 tracks/songs...masterpieces...these artists... every day. All day. I hear the beauty, I feel the pull... There is something else, pushing me away..🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶🎶
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🤡Chaos... Ever so sly... 🃏
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Impressive....
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🤡A gilded cage......❓❔
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I am understanding 🫵🏽, Chaos...
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(In my own diary, I went into great lengths regarding this part. For this, I'll shorten. My favorite game is Diablo. Imagine the parallel between great heroes/mortals battling forces they do not understand, to the death. And what we face as human beings..
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Good..bad...order...chaos...
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Who decides❔🤡❓
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It just is, until it isn't... )
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🃏We shall see.🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡🤡
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Yeah... we will.
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In chaos, there is beauty. There is life.....
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And through this.. what...
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Through this.. what? God.....???❓❔??
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God... I'm frustrated....
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I'm sorry y'all, I need a break.
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Fine, call me crazy. What if..... Hypothetical. We have this all backwards......
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God.. what if Earth is God?❓❔Unlikely.
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(❓❔, I now believe Earth to be the♟️Mother, God is the 🤡 Father, or a mixed being? Entity 🃏❓❔ Maybe even genderless, both of them or neither❓❔❓❓ - A recent philosophical viewpoint from my personal diary. Always changing, because, there is no direct answer that can be proven, beyond text.)
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We all feel him. Some ignore him..her...it. But we are here and have no other real explanation beyond the scientific, not to say the scientific disproves God, it works as evidence that it exists?❓❔ That it's only a 🧩 of the puzzle... Our own influence..... ❔
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Sorry, I also meant the biblical too, any variations; many interpretations, who is to say who is right?
If God is one and the same, why do we fight over who is right..?❔❓🃏🃏🃏🃏🃏🃏🃏
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Final note for today, I'm not trying to preach, I'm sorry if it came out that way. I'm a spiritualist, more so, a mystic. I'm not religious and believe in the power of nature... Animals are so wise.
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To ignore them is our folly. To destroy them is at our own peril.
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I only speak for myself.. please do not twist my words to fit your agenda. These are my experiences...thoughts...feelings. Not yours...
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No... If I tell you guys...
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Is religion being used to divide us??????❔????????????❓??
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We unite..🃏🃏yet remain divided.....🃏🃏
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A.. paradox?❔❓
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This is beyond the experiment. Stay focused❗
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Music.... Is an element of God? ❔🤡🎶❔
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God inspired my work, too... I didn't even know...
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I could not inspire them with my words... so I used sound..... ?? ❔❔❔❔❔❔❔
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I'm not sure .. I think this experiment may end soon. (It has, it is also my life now, I'm the experiment.)
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Have I achieved what I sought to do...?
I don't even know what that was...is ..... (I do now..maybe❓❔)
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I will continue to make music for the time being, for all who love it... But the experiment....
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Reflect on this before rash decisions.
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Wait.. grounded...
Audio hallucinations??????Delusions...❓❔❕❕❓???
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It's like.. manifesting? I don't know how to explain this.
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I felt like I was in a dream.
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I don't know anymore.....
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Later that day...
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Interesting.. a temporary effect, my son, he is 16 btw. Though he has only been exposed once to this near-final frequency. I have been exposing myself to this sound for 90 days or longer.... Through different channels.. car, computer, mobile, each is very distinct.
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Interesting.. temporary effect, my son. Though he has only been exposed once to this near-final frequency. I have been exposing myself to this sound for over 90 days.. (closer to 4 to 5 months now, estimate)
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Sorry y'all. I'm not sure why this was double-posted. Like I said, YouTube sucks with this posting crap, God.
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But why did I read it like 10 times and only notice until now..?
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I have not forgotten. I hope to update my reporting format soon. (Done)
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Update 17 - My theory... I believe this hybrid Plunderphonics & Time Stretching effect/sound, may potentially act as a calming effect to someone suffering from level 3 autism and echolalia.
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I need more time........ my own kin? Does it apply to anyone else who suffers this way.. I do not know.
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This confirmation I observed, received after a 2nd exposure/event in the same manner. Car.. loud.. amplified.... Contained. 3rd confirmed.
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(There are more tests, with other individuals. Resulting in mixed responses/results❓
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2 of my kin in total, the other, my stepson. I cannot go further without possibly doxxing myself.)
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I believe I have also improved my own cognitive function in some sort of way, I cannot explain, perceptually❔❓; I experience moments of feeling sharper, more intuitive, when listening to this sound. I spoke to AI, increased neuroplasticity...???❓❓??
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(Misleading, all of this is complex. There is not one answer, only many)
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Is this possible......
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Not today.
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Meditation and ritual...❔❓... routine❓❔ Interesting. (New)
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Yeah, it's time. Vol 2 is done.
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Vol 3. (In-progress)
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I wonder if this is it....
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Additional observation, I prefer to listen to this sound outside. The outdoors... It helps, acts as a counter? Baseline?❓❔ .... Traffic....... Ambience....⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
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Even traffic is a variable..... This is ...
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There is some sort of sun downing occurring, after a certain time (5 - 8 pm???), the effects seem.... Stronger???❓❔❓?? Nighttime was when I last hallucinated/delusions❓❔❓I will be more diligent tonight. (Confirmed)
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(Nah, I don't know. Listen, I looked into this... angel numbers?❔ This is recent, 4/10/26. It started after my EP on Reddit, my performance... If you can call it one❔I saw/see numbers in places... noticing... connecting... I've explained, I'm a mystic. To clarify, it has only happened twice.)
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(New) Scratch that....3 times now. Today as well. 4/15/2026
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Pareidolia...❓❔(Not new)
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If so, why am I aware of it❔❓❔
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Hmmm, AI claims most people are aware of it. I dunno if this is true.
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Would you be aware that you're connecting things that may or may not be real❔❓❔
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If so, can you do it consistently, the awareness❓While attempting to remain objective, during an experiment of sorts, on yourself, and others❓❔
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I'm not a religious person, no Christian, no Muslim, no Buddhist (this is not a religion❓❔), and all the others. I do not believe in angels or demons, simply our creator. And maybe our Mother, this plane, we exist on/in❓? ❔
I do take parts of religions and make them my own...(Syncretist ❔❓) Native American spiritualism, too, yes. Nature and animals. Each lesson is so valuable. Even if some of it is unbelievable.. what they all teach. This is what's important. To live a good life.
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Overinterpretation leads to fanaticism, in my opinion.... And obviously misinterpretation.
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I have deleted the extra channel bloat. This is beyond such simplicity.
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Supplemental notes,
After achieving TSP, there is much to process. This new sound, clearer, more in depth. Yet.. broader. Wider. Nearly, as I imagined every track processed to sound... with this sound. (True)
I do not believe I can push this sound any further beyond tweaks, like EQ, and any others. (False) I've learned so much over these last... What... 5 to 6 months..? (True)
My God... Time has flown by. (True)
Tinnitus, yes, it made a difference, yes. I'm unsure how. It helped me achieve this sound. Every track feels like a new experience to me, the effects..... Long term.
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I don't even recognize myself anymore. (True)
👁️ne experience .. to change my very being.(True)
👁️ne experiment. (True)
Sometimes.... That's all it takes. (❔👁️❓)
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🃏🦹🏽♀️Emergent 🦹🏽identities....🦹🏽♂️🃏
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It happened again, the movie. The vision...
A plan unfolding....
More intense. The unfolding did not scare me this time. I came prepared. A second attempt with a non-blood related relative occurred, also, suffering from echolalia or some sort of related illness. Autism included too, obviously. Tourettes related, I wonder if Echolalia is.
Quiet as can be for the ride, when listening.
He could tolerate the variation before. This one though? At a certain volume, yes. Turned down before yes, turn down this time, yes...Less.
Quiet.
As a 🐁.
Was he before...... I question.
I did ask him a question, 'how does the music sound?'
He said, 'calm.'
The song was calm, yet, did he mean the song, or the sound........
Or the volume..
He cannot explain....
What else?
What did I feel and think with TSP.
Shocked.
'Unbelievable.'
'How could someone with no knowledge of music beyond primary school as a kid/teen, achieve such a sound?'
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I thought to myself,
Then the other side, 'this is nothing. This sound... People have already achieved this.'
Dismantling any moticum of hope.
Doubt doubt doubt doubt doubt.
Defeating myself before I even had a chance.
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A video on R***** of Mother Earth, showing a heartbeat.
Our mother is alive. 🌳
The pain is real. (True)
It doesn't define you. (❓)
Even in moments, when it does. (❔)
We all must find reasons to move forward, otherwise, be defined by our past, resulting in our future.
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Pretty....
What is this message.....
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Man, such a pretty song.
Robert Miles - Dreamland (Dream version)
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Hmmmm... Psych👁️sis....
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To experience psychosis....
To struggle with reality....
Mental illnesses are fascinating to learn about.
A new perspective for the unknown, yet, known.
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That's not to say it hasn't crossed my mind. All of this...
I won't deny.
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A psychosis.
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If it were, then what?
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If it weren't, then what?
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I didn't think about this. (FALSE)
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I shouldn't announce this...
I know what a psychosis feels like, this doesn't feel like 👁️ne....
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I feel balance.
I feel love.
I feel connection, even though there aren't any.
That 👁️ can s👁️👁️.
Though, there is still loneliness.
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No matter who I'm with.
I digress, this is unrelated. I apologize.
Back to it...
Surreal... Is the only word I know to describe everything. Experiences... So wonderful, scary, awe-inspiring, yet with fear that paralyzes....
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What is a human to do with such knowledge.
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What is a person to do....
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What do I do.....
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I'm already doing it. (True)
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Janusian Thinking. 🎭
Yes.
I am able to enter this state of 🧠 with music, this slowed sound including other variables with consistency.
I can do this every day.
Yes.
The ringing plays a part.
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🦹🏽♂️🦹🏽🦹🏽♀️
Did I turn myself into a super villain?
🦹🏽♂️🦹🏽🦹🏽♀️
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Inspiration.
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Yes.
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I took three villains minds, and melded them into 👁️ne mind, yet three.
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I'm going to step away for a bit. I feel.. insane.
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Why meld.
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To create the sound.... ❔❓
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Yes...❓❔
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Pointless.
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What's the problem?
Nothing of importance was lost, ramblings, as I said. Of an old fool.
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It's all gone, I didn't save it. The riddles, the art, all of it, minus my original post.
It broke me.
Why do it then....
What's the point?
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Because it looks pretty?
Because it has a message?
Because...nothing.
Precisely.
I came real close to deleting the channel and my post. About 6 months worth of work, almost gone...
With just a few clicks....
Pointless.
I almost gave up today.....
Just for today.
Lost.
For life, though.
That's for sure.
What, the sound?
Do you want it?
What if I told you, the sound is cursed.
Would you still want it?
What good has it done me.
I spent 6 months everyday working on this sound, for 4 to 8 hours a day.
(Barely any time, in the grand scheme of things.)
It's novel, so what?
Does this matter?
Wait, you need to understand something. I'm not in the music scene, I'm just some random guy who created a new sound in his living room.
I don't see what y'all see.
I don't see anything.
Blind, I am.
What does that mean?
Sometimes I wonder if, I created this sound as a companion... Due to how lonely the world is.
Music as a companion.
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Music is better than any human.
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Music doesn't judge you,
Music doesn't invade,
Music doesn't degrade,
Music is just music.
It's just sound...
We apply meaning.
Sound becomes notes... A symphony.
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A travesty, some would say, for thinking this way.
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In this day and age?
It's just another Sunday.
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It's funny to think I'm actually speaking to someone, anyone really. I don't see anyone. Feel anyone. No replies... Yet, it still seems as if there is someone reading, or listening. Which I thank those. You don't have to, yet you do. This makes you a good human.
A better one, than I.
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For those who have ever hit rock bottom, maybe, multiple times in your life.
Do you ever wonder, like, it can't get any worse right? Then it does. Then it does again, and again, and again. You try so hard to be strong, in the end... You seek the strength, but notice it's not there. Somehow though, we are all still here. I don't get it.
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You think it will end, it doesn't, and still there is something ensuring it doesn't? Survival instinct? God? What... Family? There's no one answer. And that's bullshit. It makes me want to say.....
F*ck the universe❕!❗
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https://youtu.be/U5KSzLmxeXk
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Besides.... How much worse can it get.
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Theatrics...
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A waste of time, a diversion.
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I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
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This is track is so beautiful,
🎶🎶ooooooooooOoooooH, shoulda listened to them.... ooooooOOooooh, don't you know what I am..... OoooOoOoohh...didn't you listen to them, oooOoooooOOoHHh, don't you know what I am.... 🎶🎶🎶
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That song is so deep, emotionally. Sound is separate. They are also one. Humans, we cannot process such emotional depths, without music?
He knows despair.....
Maybe,
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What does this mean?
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I do wonder what this means for him, as an artist.
Curious.
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I'm glad I'm able to express this anonymously.
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If not, I'd probably be locked away.
For my own good.
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You take that as you want, I'm not implying anything. Crazy... Not crazy.. what does it matter. Unsure as to why being crazy, is a fear. Does this give the impression, I'm unstable, due to not knowing. Even though I know. But do I? Pfffft.. whatever.
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What?
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Ya know, if y'all didn't spend so much time staring at a screen, you could actually connect with another human being.
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You want the other art back?
The ramblings?
Why?
Yeah that's not happening until I hear from another human being.
Otherwise, Lurk away.
Interesting, moral arguments?
This is bigger than me?
Who is the judge of that?
Certainly, none of you.
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Certainly, said the rambling old fool.
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Ah I see, I have attached my own survival to this sound.
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Abnormal, some say.
I can agree with that assessment.
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Because, and I speak broadly here, those who understand what the end looks like, in your final moments, you attach to something to keep you alive. To keep a person on this plane? That's..... Not sure why I'm thinking this.
More ramblings....
With no purpose.
Me, or it?
What...
I envy people who feel no pain.
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It must be nice to live in bliss..
Eh, that's a bad argument, my bad.
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I think, what I mean to say is, y'all clearly have learned something I have not. A sort of peace. I'm curious to know, is that peace due to yourself? God? Your life? Your family? Your pet? Friends?
All of it?
What if, all of it?
What if, not all of it?
None of it?
What if, none of it?
What if, not none of it?
Some of it?
What if, some of it?
What if, not some of it?
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Interesting observation, the battle is won, but not the war. The problem is, the World is dying, so the war is already lost.
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My world?
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The world?
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A world?
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What World?
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No.. which world?
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The world is f*cked.
And the world is definitely f*cked, if y'all give me a voice in it. This is why I speak here.
It's better this way. That's funny, it's almost like, I'm breaking up with the world. I feel bad for y'all, if so. You see....
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Y'all see..
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Breaking up with me, probably isn't a good idea in any situation. I'm f*cking nuts, and I'm glad I'm alone. Kinda.
Not really.
Unfortunately.
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Yeah that sounds crazy huh?
I wholeheartedly, agree.
And.... Yeah, I'm a great lay tho.
So I hear.
Speaking of, all of this made me realize I'm not cut out for monogamy. I know some people are real stern about it, some people are just free spirits.
Some of you know this already, some of you don't, repression is real. Borderlining oppression.
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If only I had known this about myself, from the very beginning. Noticed? Observed? Internalized? Being lost in mental illness is real, too. Some people spend their whole lives lost, to be woken up by circumstances beyond and sometimes within their own control. The problem is recognizing it, depiste everyone around you telling you the truth. To be blind of the truth, but from within?
Who could... Escape, such a scenario?
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Unscathed.
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Odd thought,
Some people are just closer to than death than others. That feeling never goes away either. It stays with you for life. Due to this, everything is more of a struggle than it needs to be. Everyone is thrown pills, or go see a therapist, etc, but.... Those answers aren't always there. Sometimes you gotta find that sh*t out yourself.
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Once again, fuc* the universe, and fuc* love.
Love... Yeah...
Ever had an emotion or feeling, like love, a concept. Cause so much destruction in your life....
The thought of it...
Just..
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No.
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Why bother?
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Ever again......
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Some of you know,
Some of you don't,
Some of you will.
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Enjoy it while it lasts...
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Life.
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Like I said before, it's a lot shorter for others, than yourself, and this isn't a threat or anything. Simply, a reminder.
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Also, a word of advice.
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Don't breed with just anybody. Any body.
You're stuck with them for life. I wish someone had told me this 20 years ago, maybe some did. Maybe, I didn't listen.
I do see now. So, if you're young, strap it up. Otherwise, risk punishing yourself for life.
Irrelevant.
Observation, experiences of tracks change depending on the time of day, different from sun downing. This could only be me, though. I have lost time, and I don't know how long it's been. I estimate 5 to 6 months exposed to this sound, nearly for the entire day with some breaks. Days are melting together. One day, I may think it's Monday, but it's an entirely different day. Lifestyle plays part.
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Many days later..
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Why does time seem to just disappear...
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I'm refining my skill. Learned about envelopes today. To control perception in this manner, with sound. It's remarkable. It came intuitively to me. I was building around the sound as I was testing it. Applying clusters in narrow format, spread out.. checking the differences. All of it. Granted, AI helped me understand how it works, in application, it was all me. I'm glad I practiced today. The whole ordeal was kinda eye-opening for me.
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Somewhat Updated. Some new, Some Old @ ❔♟️🃏6:00:0008 pm 05/12/26❓♟️
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